
Don’t Stop The Seeking
Step 11 starts with the word “sought”, which is the past tense of “seek”. Since I “sought through prayer and meditation” a relationship with a Higher Power in the previous 10 steps, it is my understanding that I must continue searching throughout my life. My searching and my seeking doesn’t stop at step 11, it has to continue one day at a time so I can keep this precious gift of sobriety.

Connection with Higher Power
I remember early in recovery I had fought the idea of dependence on a Higher Power. I thought I was self-sufficient and I could do anything if I worked hard enough at it. I wasn’t powerless or had an unmanageable life. I surely didn’t need something greater than myself to stay sober even though using almost killed me. I fought all the things we learn in the program until I hit a spiritual bottom and needed to get honest with myself. I had to face the truth. I had to admit that I desperately needed help. Asking for help is something that just doesn’t come naturally to me so I knew I was in a really bad place. I did find help and got busy working the steps of the program. While I worked the steps, I found a Higher Power and began my spiritual journey.